Back in December 2021, Nick Cannon and Alyssa Scott’s son Zen passed away at the age of 5 months after foregoing chemotherapy.

The Masked Singer host announced that they came to that decision for their infant once they realized it would “suck everything out” of him.

During an episode of The Checkup with Dr. David Agus, the 42-year-old reflected on their decision, “Seeing your son hooked up to all of those machines — and he had to go for a shunt two or three times, and that was heartbreaking every time — even in that short amount of time, I couldn’t imagine him having to go through chemo.”

He also added that the doctors told them that chemotherapy would “not really” extend his life and the “best case scenario” with the diagnosis would be “3 or 4 years.”

While faced with the harrowing decision, Cannon and Scott chose to prioritize Zen’s “quality of life” and during his short time on earth, give him the “best existence he could have.”

Cannon, who had undergone chemo for his lupus, also added, “I knew how as a full grown man, that process (chemotherapy) My hair was falling out. I wouldn’t even call it pain; it just sucked everything out of you. I couldn’t imagine that on a newborn and what that would do.”

The Wild ’n Out star also added that he didn’t want Zen to “live in the hospital” for his entire life.

“Luckily we did everything from the sunrise, going to the beach, the sunset, said some beautiful prayers as a family, and really came together as a family in a very beautiful way,” he recalled. “I’m grateful for that, but it was definitely tough. To see your child there, suffering at a point and watching things shut down, it was pretty intense.”

Just earlier this month, he shared how he’s still “broken” one year after Zen’s death.

“Physically I’m definitely on the mend but Mentally and Spiritually I’m broken. Such a painful anniversary. Losing a child has to be the heaviest, most dark and depressive experiences that I will never get over. A mixture of guilt, pain, and sorrow is what I suppress daily,” he added.

Currently, Nick Cannon and Alyssa Scott are pregnant with their second child together. This will be the 12^th child of Cannon.